I walked outside today,

just a short jaunt to get away

 

Knowing not what I sought

but simply that I sought

 

I've been imprisoned and enmeshed,

pulled this way and that

 

My ears perpetually ringing

with the steady hum of computer, fluorescent lights and clients

 

I escape to a favorite park of mine,

a river walkway of many memories

 

Here I am unfettered by phone, doorways and desks,

here I am still and at peace

 

The melting ice flows with no timetable nor hurries,

the geese fly over head with no ceiling nor boundaries

 

This is where I belong,

wild and free

 

I seek to reclaim my noble savageness,

as Whitman puts it, my barbaric yawp

 

My heart pines for this, as it would my passionate lover

One grants me freedom, intimacy and sex within my life

The other grants freedom, intimacy and sex outside of my life

 

At last lulled my soul's head to rest

into Gaia's splashing, splooshing watery lap

 

As I begin to make my way home, I begin to realize,

though I am human, am also animal and nature

I am far from domesticated,

my blood still runs hot to undulation rhythm of the seasons

 

I leave transformed and changed,

Unrecognizable to my former self

I awoke this mornings, like most staring outside at the windows. It is something that helps relax me before going into morning ritual/meditation. When i was caught by a morning urge I had not felt in a few weeks maybe even a month. It was slightly windy outside and some rain but no biggy. So I changed and got outside to commune with nature. I live in the suburbs, not as much chance here to do so...... dammed backdoor screendoor was stuck! This may have been a sign, but I pressed onwards. Not content with my backyard, I ventured to take a brief walk down the street and back. I saw what I thought was truck lights in the distance of the high way. I was wrong. No sooner had I made it half way down the street when I was bathed and showered in wind and rain....... so much so for moments I could not see nor know no which end was up. I stood there exhilarated, frightened but awed. I laughed with a feeling of sheer youth, doing something I should not have. The lightening increased as did the wind. I ran with as if all my life depended on it. No sooner had I gotten in when our heavy garbage tote, which NEVER gots knocked over just did. For 10 minutes all I could do was stare at the storm before going in.

 

      It is not often that as an adult I get frightened other than nagging worries or life's bullshit. It was incredible to be touched by something sooo primal, sooo impersonal, so natural. I felt the magick of being a child, like when we are told of boogie men and forest spirits.

The building I work in is hot and dry

The chaos of my work place storms outside my closed door 

Fall is in full bloom here 

The colors are afire here after a much delayed autumn 

The rain mists outside my opened window

The darkness of day is growing daily, it feels so calming 

It envelops me and takes me in whole, like some secret lover

A steady breeze breathes life into the stagnant parts of my life

The atmosphere makes me feel like I am a 1000 miles away from my daily reality

I feel very much alive, yet incredibly grounded

I sit, awaiting to see what new things will blow next into my life

     While on vacation I really began to understand and look at the element of water in a new way. I've always looked at water as hard and fast like thunderstorms, waterfalls or rivers. Water invocations were never easy, it was just something I would say but my experience with ocean and Gulf of Mexico were magickal. First I really realized it is the mother from which all life came from. Going into the water the undulations were both sensual and visciously powerful at the same time. Both masculine and feminen. It would draw you in gently and then nearly pulling you off your feet in a matter of a minute. Though I only spent a minute there, I could have spent days there crashing against the waves. Each time I just wanted one more wave, one more experience. It casts a hypnotic charm on you like some like some lover that you can never get enough of. It truly had an infinite quality to it. If anyone here has never experence the ocean, I strongly recommend it. I know from here on out my spirituality and magick will have a great deal of strength behind it as a result.

The moon was immensely large and beautiful in my neck of the woods, nearly got into a few accidents peering at it on my way to work (laughter) You'll know who I am if you see me on the road! Even  though I was into nature a great deal before becoming Pagan, I never really enjoyed the seasons, the moons as much as I do now. I enjoyed it to the point of using it, but never really becoming one with it as I do now!!!! I am honored to have found this path!